Tuesday, March 5, 2013
And Yet I Still Wonder
Today I played so many hands so badly that I find it to be a small miracle that I'm even still in action, let alone a respected pro that a lot of people look up to. I mean, I just played...so...fucking...bad. It was beyond reason. Nitty prop guy capped it, then checked the flop of AQ3 3 ways, so what did I do with the ten and the ten? I fired a bet out there. Am I bluffing? I better be, because I am losing 114% of the time here, and when he c/r why did I peel? Did I really want to hit the jackpot that badly? I must have because I certainly can't win the pot. When other super duper nitty guy checked back the 976-3 turn after c-betting the flop, why did I bet the 9 river? What exactly was I hoping he'd call my pair of 6s with? I mean, really. It's an awful awful bet that he's going to play so close to perfectly against it blows my mind that I even considered making it, let alone actually fired it. Sure it's preposterous, but I really do need to check call, check check, check/fold a pair there. I do, I really just do he's that awful and by not doing so I'm sinking to his level and letting him off the hook for no reason whatsoever. And when he checked back the A63 flop after three betting me preflop, what exactly was I hoping to accomplish by check/raising the 5 turn and betting the deuce river with A8? Again, he's playing perfectly....He showed me the Ace and the Ten, obviously. If he'd had the king and the king even he'd have snap folded to my check/raise. I have to stop going for thin value against this idiots and commence bluffing them relentlessly. It is the only way. Or when I opened AQ otb and the blinds defended and the sb donked the KT3 flop and said "raise me!" after the big blind just called I...raised him? Really Jesse? Really? Stone cold fish I was there. You check/raise me on the KT3-4ddd turn? I will showdown red eights. Why not, I could win sometimes right? OK actually that one was pretty much fine, and when I started writing this post I had more hands in mind wherein I played like total garbage but they are now escaping me. The point is that I've lost $20k straight and honestly I think I'm pretty far off my A game and might be in need of a break.