We've all been there. I've been there 5, maybe 6 times. You know it's just completely fucked, the whole thing, there is no way out. What do you do in that moment? Whatever it is, it's not a small thing. It matters. It's a job. A girl. A person. Something. But it's fucked and you cannot get it back.
People who are good at life know exactly what to do. Relationship, job...a fucking cat. Doesn't even matter. When they know it's fucked, they cut bait and run. Because it's completely fucked...they know they can't fight their way out, and even if they could what would be the point? It's fucked.
Then there's me. I don't quit, I don't give up on anything. Ever. Ever. How's that worked out for me, you ask? Real bad. Real, real fucking bad. Pretty much in the history of my life I can't think of a time I should have quit and didn't. It's a damn shit show, I miss every off ramp every time. I get hurt again and again. Or I fail, again and again. Then I get left.
So once that happens 57 times in a row you have to ask yourself....are you trying to get hurt? Are you even trying to protect yourself? Surely you can't be that stupid....But I am that stupid, and it's a huge "character" flaw. Apparently I like to "play the victim", and that's horrendous.
So...I'm gonna work on it. And you should, too. When it's fucked, it's fucked. Don't hang on to something that's not there. Just do something better.