Now that I'm done with my stream of consciousness rant, I'd like to say that I've been running poorly and I think it's started to affect my play. In my last 120 hours of limit hold 'em I've lost about 180 bets, which is just enough to get irritating, especially since I had just pulled myself out of a 250 bet downer that happened less than 6 weeks earlier. The whole thing is just getting so...old. I play a pot well, it's monstrous, there is over a rack of chips in in it and I....lose headsup to a two outter. I can't win that money back, it's gone forever. I have to play that spot over 20 more times, and win EVERY TIME, just to get back to expectation. I know I know, that's a horrible way to think about it, but it's just getting...old.
The situation at the bike is kind of silly at this point. We've hired a couple more props who basically come in whenever they want, which is when the game is good, during my shift, so they are effectively just stealing money from me, and I'm getting pretty sick of it. They aren't paying me enough to work the job, but I'm hanging on for a potential bump to 40 hours a week (which would also come with benefits, I hear, which are nice).
Anyway, no big ending, nothing special here. Just three years of grinding and still a lot of questions running through my head.