Some Random Small Posts Will Ensue

I'm playing right now but will make some small single thought posts from my phone. First of all I am alive; but barely. I really got knocked on my ass yesterday at Commerce, missing the whale twice in the 1/2 (we started, game filled, I quit and re-listed, he came in I was first to move and quit the main and never got back) and general high limit propping for them for free, all the while losing $5k mostly in the 40. I just felt...defeated. I felt like there were lots of players doing lots of things (playing being one of them) better than me and I just tucked my tail between my legs and ran to the Bike today. As they say, it is what it is.